""When his power started to decline he would tell Anderson to start him on another drug cycle, according to a source familiar with Bonds. Anderson kept the calendar that tracked his cycles. If he told Bonds he didn't need a cycle, Bonds would just tell him, 'F -- off, I'll do it myself." (Fainaru-Wada, Mark, and Lance Williams. Game of Shadows: Barry Bonds, BALCO, and the Steroids Scandal That Rocked Professional Sports.)
... While optimism can work in a positive way, the pessimism that Barry Bonds showed during his career is completely unbelievable. There is an old saying that applies to Bonds in his career, "No one can hurt you as much as you can hurt yourself." (Friend, Harold. Barry Bonds Was a Hall of Famer until Jealousy Destroyed his Greatest Goal) Here was a guy putting up great stats in Pittsburgh, already a probable hall of famer, but he blew it all when the allegations of Performance Enhancing Drugs surfaced. You can see the results in the pictures above; his head, hands and feet are way larger at San Francisco than in Pittsburgh. It turns out that the reason that Bonds started using steroids was because he was insecure and jealous of Mark McGwire and his chase for Roger Maris's single season home run record. Bonds made jealous and racist remarks about McGwire during his pursuit of the record in 1998, saying, "They're just letting him do it because he's a white boy". (Fainaru-Wada, Mark, and Lance Williams. Game of Shadows: Barry Bonds, BALCO, and the Steroids Scandal That Rocked Professional Sports.) Barry Bonds was insecure, jealous, and maybe a little racist. Instead of just playing out the rest of his career that would have probably landed him in the hall of fame, he felt the need to do so many PED's that his head grew. This scandal has ruined any credibility his career has had, and he doesn't sound like he was very optimistic through the process....
